I don't deserve anything that I've not fought for!!!!

I don't deserve it because i am not fighting for it.....

They say.....

fight for something you believe in

fight for something worth fighting for

fight for something you love

fight for someone you love

I'm confused.... have I been fighting for the past?

Have i been fighting for anything?!!

I have not.... 

Attitude of 'Tidak Apa' seems seeded inside me since I was very young. It grows, growing and keep growing because i let it grow freely and it rooted unnoticed.....

Maybe I'm lack of apathy.

Maybe desire army is not strong enough to fight evil attitude of 'Tidak Apa'.

Maybe I have a stupid perception of I'm not going to die even if I don't fight for it.

Maybe the fear of rejections and defeats caused by past experiences.

But today, I'm awake.... it's the denial of the fact that I'm still happy and comfortable without fighting for what it seems to be unimportant. I've used to it. Unconsciously denying the fact for a very long time and it's get comfortable.

I don't deserve anything that I've not fought for!!!!

Now, I have awake. I have to start fighting.

Fight for things that I've lost for not fighting.

Fight for things I believe in

Fight for things I want and love

Fight for someone worth fighting for...............

Lonestar --- Amazed LIVE

One of my favourite songs.... 



Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone, 
Or anything
I can hear your thoughts, I can see your dreams

[Chorus]
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life,
with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you.

The smell of your skin,
The taste of your kiss,
The way you whisper in the dark.
Your hair all around me,
Baby you surround me
Touch every place in my heart
And it feels like the first time
Every time.
I want to spend the whole night
In your eyes

[Chorus:Repeat x2]

The Feeling or The Person

It's raining for the past few hours already. I like rainy night! ;) A cup of warm coffee is the best mix with this pleasant night but I don't want to bring two dark eye bags tomorrow morning to the office and show everyone.

Saw one friend posted in facebook this "不要因为寂寞而错爱了一人，因为错爱一人，而导致寂寞一生。" Usually I don't read chinese post, because I don't know. lol. So when I see chinese sentences, I'll use my very steep understanding of chinese characters to figure out what the post is about.

So, I read it with my own brain, "不要因为 X X X X X 了一人，因为错爱一人，X X X X X一生。" That's all my brain told me. Haha. I found it like interesting, so I translated it with google translate and found out the meaning is true, agreed!

(Basically, the steps above is what I have been doing with chinese words that I don't understand. THANK YOU GOOGLE! and today 27 Sep 2012 is GOOGLE's 14th Birthday =D Happy Birthday)

OK, back to the post. The post says, "Don't because of loneliness you love the wrong person, and because of loving the wrong person, you are forever lonely." The sentence is telling us, that we might be loving someone because at the time of loneliness we need love. We need love and companionship, so we fall in love.

But the thing that we love is the feeling of love itself, not the person :) It's the feeling of being loved and loving...... not exactly the person. The person might not be the person we would like to have in our entire life. The 'supossed-to-be right one' maybe just not at the right place and right time when we need someone. BUT, the right one actually might turn him/herself up one day and we realised that he actually is the right one. Just because lonelines, we have chosen the other person who was there at the right place and right time.

Err, sorry for my terrible English sentence structure. :(

Love is blind. But sometimes we just blindly loving someone happily :)

Ok, time to sleep. Already 1.30am. Tomorrow still bring two dark eye bags to work. @_@ Good night!

Singapore :)

Untruth #60

My Life My Confession, a place where unwanted feelings can be diluted here, realizing that talking to anyone else in this world doesn't make things better.

"ALONE" is not my word anymore.

Truth #60 : "I like to be alone most of time, I am emo" is not true anymore when the realisation of the others existence being existed in each others existence hits in, and you are not in it. The feeling of total isolation, total silent in some way. Some type of eerie tranquility that wrapped up the surrounding, getting tighter and breathless. Grasping hardly every air left and relying on the only barely visible hole giving the only hopeless light. It's getting harder and darker. Very hard..... very dark.... The only sound can be heard is the sound of own breathe getting weaker and weaker together with the dying light it seems like the end reaching soon....

How will this long? Where are the determinations, motivations and perseverance which used to be the sword and shield.................

I'll be back one day!

PSK 2.0

(This 2.0 has nothing related to Bersih 2.0 that demonstrated in KL on 9 July 2011. But I remind any of you reading this, please register to vote if u are above 21 years old and vote in the next election. BEFORE 13 SEPT 2011 or you are NOT qualified to vote for the next election! I think that's what we must do as a Malaysian for a better Malaysia. I admire those attended the rally. Malaysia really need Malaysians like you :-) Thank you.

PSK 2.0 means I'm sailing into another major chapter in journey of my lifetime. A journey that took me quite some time to decide considering a lot of aspects in my life and future. In the end of pros and cons, present and future weighing moment, I choose the one less taken :-)

Singapore.
The only word to describe my current state is LONELY. Obviously. I missed out a lot of things because of this choice I've taken. There will be a lot a lot a lot many much more enjoyable moments that I might never ever have in my life.

The thing that I really miss is the time I spent together with my dad, mum and brothers. This is the most precious moment ever in my life. Although we don't really spent our days together always, but an hour of breakfast or dinner few days a week is already enough to make myself feel that I have a family that's always with me. A cup off coffee, breads and two half-boiled eggs every Sunday morning sitting in front of our tv set together has been one of my many priceless moment in my life.

My mum just called me. We talked for bout 10-15 minutes. It's not the same like when I was studying in Sheffield for 3 months. I called her every weekend and I knew I would be going back to Malaysia and live like usual. But this time, I don't know when will I quit my job here and go back to Klang. I have a feeling that I'll be staying here forever. So, I always remind myself I'll be back one day..... but the day is still far away...

Yes, I'll be going back every month or two, but it's not the same. It's totally different for me. I wish I could understand why am I born with such weak heart....

I know I'm such an idiot, I can always go back home in an hour flight and so near but again, it's very different.

Besides family, I lost every little moment I could have spent with friends. The time we had were simply too meaningful and joyful filled with laughters.

I miss futsal which is part of my life. It's not the ball that i miss.. It's not the goal.... It's not the pitch... It's the burning passion by just simply kicking the ball go around me and every of my teammates attacking and defensing together till the abang kaunter close the court spotlight........

Wtf. Don't laugh. It's true.

I'm not saying that I'm regret to work here. It's a sacrifice that I have already knew long before the day I took my first step. Just that it's more than I had expected. I believe I would have been more regretful if I'm still working in Malaysia today. I still believe this :-)

So, I need to get on with my life here. I'll change the surrounding, not the surrounding changes me. Lol. Sound promising?

That's all ;-) My work just loaded this few days. It's hard to arrange earlier my time to go back home :-(

Take care all of you!

(wtf i'm being so emo) XD

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My life, My unforeseen journey.

it's 3am, lying on my comfortable 6 feet long queen size bed, ceiling fan forming air molecules forcing and squeezing each other downwards softly towards my half naked body, along with rhythm played by the ceiling fan, bringing me into the state of ultimate relaxation which can be found and felt only in the place called Home.

Next room, brother still awake entertained by his lappie. sleep early is not a usual routine for him. He watches the moon more than any of us nowadays.

Parents are sleeping soundlessly in the other room. But not as silent as can be heard from inside. My dad snores has been a regular for my mum since the past 27 years. :-)

The reason to exists in this beautiful earth still blurry to me although I always believe that Life should be lived to the max, as beautifully as it could be, loving each other eternally.

But as time ticking by, seconds to minutes, minutes to hours, hours to days and days to years, what I've been believing merely a belief.

I can say my life is comfortable and happy with good friends and lovely family around. I have everything that I need. Sometimes I get what I want. That's how I take things for granted sometimes.

But is life meant to be like this for the rest of my life? I would be very grateful if I could be with my family till death do us part.

To me, life is not long enough. My dream is to go around the world, exploring every corner of this amazingly wonderful earth. A cycle of life couldn't make this dream comes true for a normal guy like me. Perhaps a 200 years life could make this happened. The first 100 years to have a stable while enjoying career to earn and save. The next 100 years is to spend the savings anywhere, anytime and anyhow we wanted to. haha! That's a silly thought. =)

So, to have a better future with more $_$ I've already chose to earn more with my time left in my life thus sacrificing time I could spend with my family.

Few months later, I hope I managed to get off my ass out from here. If it happened, I will be just an hour flight away from my home. Life is short :-)

To earn more so I can provide myself, my family and my future own family to have a comfortable and good life. Of course it's perfect if one day I manage to have my feet stepped on every corner of the world. :-)

Now, it's time and my turn to take over the war.

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New Year Resolution, again! =)

It's the end of 2011! One more day to go! For me this moment means holiday season, home cleaning, job annual BONUS, vacation, buying new clothes for CNY, and we grow another year older! and of course not to be forgotten, New Year Resolutions! (This is what i have posted for the past few years, but almost all failed)

I guess my previous resolution might be a lil bit VERY difficult. Some of them do not create long term benefit or permanent enhancement to my life. I guess this time i'll make a possible and worthy one! and surely, I will try my best to make all this happen! :-)

For me, before we start to list out our New Year Resolutions, we look back to the past and see what have we done/achieved and what's not. So we can have part of the list comes from these 'undone' things.

My past obviously have a lot of things left undone or I can say, not even take off my first step. #_# Here are 2 posts about my New Year Resolutions. 2008 and 2009. Couldn't remember why I didn't post any in 2010. Now here comes 2011! TIME FLIES!

2008

2008 resolution <-- click here to back to the past! XD

I think this one is far too long ago. =D of course there are accomplishment!

1) I think I have a better temper now. I forgive my eraser whenever he hide from me. I always tell him nicely don't ever do that again.

2) I don't really drive like samseng jalanan anymore or tailgate people in a pasar pagi. But I still trying to tailgate Skyline and Subaru on the speed lane with my ori 5 gear Kenari 1.0 DOHC....*gambateh!

3) I believe I think maturely a lil bit more compare to last time. But I don't act like one i guess. Do I? Do I? wtf. say something.

4) I don't know wth is that "get closer to neighbour" existed. I just can't make it. HA HA!

Ya, that's something I have achieved in 2008. That's not a big deal, because people change. If you don't, probably you are some alien from other planet like my 15" LCD sitting here and let me poke. *poke poke

2009

Mid 2009 Resolution! <-- click here to back to the past! =D

WOW! this list is terribly created! How could I create a New Year Resolution like this. It's all about getting a luxurious life!

No1. - Debt.

This one is a must every year. Can't get rid of this, like my mum walks into my room every 47.5 minutes to tell me to drink water. And she din't realise that she have been talking to a water barrel.

Debt. The problem doesn't arise from the so called MONEY, but it's US, ME, YOU....... OURSELF.

The only way to get rid of debt is defeating yourself, and not the money. Of coarse if there's a chance to earn more, try it without gambling what you have. There's nothing to lose.

No.2 - Backpack

This one I guess will be my all time NYR (New Year Resolution). But life is not as smooth and easy as I think. Let it be. I still hoping to travel around the world one day. Step by step la~ :)

No.3 - Change Handphone

HA! This is the only one i've done! Change my rm200 hp to a RM 2K hp! AT LEAST I'VE DONE SOMETHING from this ridiculous list! ha ha!

No.4 - Girlfriend

OH NO! This one is a disaster..... forget it...... Let it be....

No.5 - Change my car

This one no longer a need for me. I'll stay with my Kenari...... until I can tailgate a Subaru with my skill... Thank you thank you.... *bow

No.6 - DSLR Camera

I bought a phone. No more extra money. pathetic........ and this phone sometimes feed on money. wtf.

No.7 - Touch up tattoo

Ya, hope I can have a visit to tattoo studio one day. *choose The Rock's tattoo, Ctrl C + Ctrl V, done...

No.8 - Clothing and accessories

None..... Just a phone and few RM 10 Tshirt.

No.9 - Extra income

Couldn't get any T_T...but few months ago there is one measurement work, still pending due to some problem. Hope it get solved soon.

That's it! My 2009 NYR. Only one! and I'm not sure if it's a NYR after all. ha ha!

2011

2011 will be a easier one! Lets start immediately!

1) bath less to prevent global warming.

2)Buy a hair cutting machine, cost RM20. I can cut my head botak shinny shinny...so i can save all my haircut cost. RM18 x 12months x 60 years (LOL) = RM 12,960!!

RM12,960 deduct machinery cost RM20 x 5 unit = RM 12,860! HEY PEOPLE! go and buy the haircutting machine that cost RM20 but have a value of RM12,860!

3) use toilet bowl 5 times only flush to save water and money.

4) Fart less.

5) Love nature. Kill less mosquitoes.

OK, stop. I am joking. Let's start a real one.

1) Bath 5 times a day

1) Debt!

Still my first one! ha ha! And this time I come with a better method which is interrelated with No.2 later. I don't have enough money to use every month. Don't as me why, I am wondering too.

So, previously I came out with a plan which is still slightly on going right now. XD which is skipping tea time meals like nescafe, snacks. Unfortunately, in the end not much improvement because the determination isn't strong enough to hold those temptations. :( but i am still trying~

2) Singapore

YES! I've been telling this for the past one year! but I am still nailed here in Malaysia. 2011 will be the year I start to earn SGD. I hope I can do it this time.

3) Discipline & get organised

I don't have enough discipline after my secondary school time. Busy....? Involved in too much thing in my life? I will try to get this improved time after time.

It is a very essential thing in our daily life which involves everything. Organise my life. I think it's a terrible mess. Sometimes I just don't know what I am doing.

4) Spend more time with family

Take family out, to the mall, morning stroll or even a vacation if I have $$$. But I have to remove myself from Malaysia and work abroad soon, I hope.

5) Enjoy morning toilet time life

Get myself involve with things happening in the city. Spend more weekends out from home to the beach, mall, hiking etc etc. Life is horribly terribly short! In my opinion, age 20-30 is the best part in our life.

Once we reach the 30's, life's getting harder and responsibilities trespassing into our life so sudden and unexpected. So, enjoy while you can. Do whatever you think you need to do to pursuit the happiness that lingering around your life.

6) DSLR

I like to take pictures. I like beautiful pictures. I have a digital camera, but I already got bored of it. I hope I can buy one and spend my leisure time with it. The most important, I can use it during my holiday to take pictures of beautiful bitch beach and scenery as beautifully as I want.

7) Girlfriend (the photo above is Anne Hathaway smiling beautifully!)

HA HA! this one still remains! 7 more days I'll reach the 19th 25th year as a human. It's the mid of my 20's!!!! In a blink of eye! Before i blink, i was still 9 years old playing Atari video games, my favourite Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles! U see! so fast. DONT BLINK YOUR EYES!!!

I feel like everyone is urging me to find a gf.... but, it's not easy for me. I have no guts and I am choosy. Most important, My money just enough for a plate of nasi kandar with ayam and cabbage + MPK car park everyday. I couldn't afford the 2nd plate. Some more want order teh oh ais limau leh! 2 ppl!? eat s**t ar..... @_@ but still have to start keeping an eye on the market. LOL

8) Stay healthy

During futsal game, I've discovered that my condition is not as good as few years ago when I can run like Torres Messi. I guess my health starts to deteriorate. I couldn't breathe smoothly and easily when I am sprinting during futsal. Stamina getting worse.

Other than that, my legs cramp easily and sweat a lot. (not that SWT ---> =_=!) My mum always buy us many types of vitamin although I don't really know what's the nutrient for. Thank you :) I will have to take care my health like uncle aunty out there very soon.....

9) Save more

This one seems like conflicting with other Resolution. ha ha! If I managed to get my ass to Singapore, I might save some for my disobedient unforeseen future! I MUST SAVE!!!!

10) (What you think I should fill in here / what should I improve?) =D

I think that's all for now. Nine. Ha ha. 2011 won't be an easy year for me. I'll make some quite big changes in my life such as working in Singapore.

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As the new year blossoms, may the journey of your life be fragrant with new opportunities, your days be bright with new hopes and your heart be happy with love! HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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Life is short, enjoy to the fullest!

Life is short, enjoy to the fullest!

Finally i understand the meaning of this phrase. Maybe I am already too late and old to understand this simple phrase :-)

It changes my perspective on love and life, from the correct and better side perhaps. A more realistic and positive side that make life worth the ride. I do feel so :)

I used to think that a relationship should always ended in a marriage

I used to think that a girl friend should end up as a wife.

I used to believe that the girl I am in love with is the girl I have been waiting and searching to be the life partner who will complete my life journey with me.

I used to think that love is always forever.

I used to think that the journey should start and end with the same person.

I used to think that....

I used to think that....


ALL these 'THINK' already did much sadness, dissatisfaction and false hope along my journey. It adds misery, sadness and tears.

Of course we have to think bout future sometime, but not all the time... because it make us miserable by HOPING for something unrealistic to become realistic. Or hoping from a blank paper to end up into a beautiful colourful drawing. This is the way that I had been thinking.

IT IS NOT THE CORRECT WAY! It is too far, too much, too long!
The desired destination may not be the destination that have been waiting for.
The blank paper may not completed with the drawing that have been expected.
The ending is way too far to be even sketched out!

Why not just go on with the process, enjoy the journey.
Don't think too far, enjoy while I can.
Don't have to think the latter, only the present.
Don't think naively bout those happy endings!
Don't hope so much because the disappointment will be greater than what I can imagine!

Or I can say, "let it be"!

Enjoy while I can! Enjoy those happy moments!
I don't have to think, I just need to enjoy!
I don't have to care, I just need to fill the journey with happy moments!
I don't need to think bout Tomorrow! Use the time to make Today worth my journey!

DON'T YOU THINK SO!?

Life is too short to fill in unhappy moments. We cannot prevent or avoid misery and sadness....but sometimes, we can choose not to have them. It's how the way we ride.... A change of perspective on life can make life happier and worth....

Life is short, no time to make us unhappy, unless it's unavoidable!

Life is short, enjoy to the fullest!

Happiness~ My Dream!

Happiness! Everyone want a happy life! But what happy life means to you?!! I viewed through my family old albums, I found a lot of priceless captured moments! But here I only upload part of it. I think I had the happiest moment ever in my life when I was young. No worries, nothing to think :') Play, play and play.

From left; Ah Hoe, Ah Hien and Ah Kiat. See the old TV behind. We used that TV to play our ATARI game! We would wake up as early as 6.45am and go down stairs to play. I remember the game we used to play was Ninja Turtle! Me and Ah Hoe were always struggling to kill the BIG BOSS! what his name liau har...

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=_= I can't remember what happened to me in this pic, this is from a pro photographer :) AH Hien PANG-STYLE hair with his 3.0 RX7!

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Me and Hien

When we were young, Dad and Mum took a lot of our pictures with our only old film camera. I think they threw it away. We were so happy and enjoy playing with each other, but sometimes we quarrel too :( Thank you Daddy & Mummy to provide such happy and well living environment for us!

5 years old Ah Hoe and half months old fat Ah Hien XD Very innocent Ah Hoe >.<

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We were once very good but we quarreled during secondary school, and now as we grow older and matured, we understand each other feeling. Sometimes I felt guilty for bullying him when he he were small :'(

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Classic up-to-date fashionable Mummy with two formal-ised sons during CNY! :) Until now, her taste to fashion is still good...err...but sometimes the clothes she bought for us are a bit not our style. XD

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I am not sure this is me or Ah Hoe, but they said is me T_T I think this is Ah Hoe. (Sei tou hm yeng ar!)

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We were very very playful and happy! Look at our toys "Lasy". something like Lego but more challenging. I guess my nonsense brain had been trained by this toy. XD

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Ha ha ha. Ah Hoe with his trademark? v('_')v Look at our sofa. Consider expensive one oh, but a bit old.

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It's Ah Hien 2nd birthday! He was very chubby and cute. but 2010 Ah Hien is skinny +_+ hmmm, what cake is this?

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I guess we like to take photos and they like to take photos of us! :) SITTING ON THE TABLE! APA NI!

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Ah Hoe 10th birthday! BLACK FOREST CAKE! is it? This photo was taken after we moved into our grandparents house which is our current house now.

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Me and Ah Hoe with Mickey mouse cap! I was tickling him? XD

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ha ha ha ha! This 1 is good! Too happy with his angpau! LOL RM2 saja ma. =)

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Daddy with Ah Hien on his shoulder! Children like to be carry high high.

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Ah hoe was using his trade mark on Ah Hien v^_^ My stripes t-shirt nice leh :)

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Daddy used to bring us to A&W especially at Klang town for dinner. We all love the ice-cream waffle! Root beer too! but that branch closed.

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See mummy hair stlye! Last time HOT one leh! XD This time i "V" on Ah Hoe. ha ha ha.!

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Cute Ah Hien with his terbalik cap~ My felix T shirt!

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I think the happiest moment was the time when we were small. Now, I am already 24 years old. Other than family, all the things changed. I mean, ARE CHANGING. Life getting more challenging. Happy moment are lesser compare to those younger days.

I have a lot of dreams. (greedy) ha ha.. dream here means the ultimate dream life which i would like to have for the rest of my entire life.
1) Become a beach boy and live in the most beautiful beach in the world! - I don't know how to swim! ha ha!
2) Travel around the world like a nomad! work and travel all around the world! but this almost impossible ~_~

3) Migrate to a country i like! This one seems better! XD

I like Northern Ireland which i stayed for 3 days before.

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I want to walk here everyday!

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How nice is this! live in these houses opposite the ocean!

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Pony! I want to rear a lot of ponies and sheep!

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You can read my Northern Ireland trip here. Click the link below.

http://kforkiat.blogspot.com/2008/07/northern-ireland.html

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This is one of the countries i like! there are alot more like new zealand! england! maldives! hawaii....and a lot more! the earth is too large to be discovered!

I hope I can achieve my dream one day........

Kopi O

Currently my life is not as exiting and 'exhilarating' as previously. Last time I struggled to pass exam, I burnt mid night oil to finish up my assignment, I walked, took KTM, took LRT, took bus to classes and always think of my future. That's it! I'm in the 'future'! but......

I had a thought that working life would be quite interesting as we could have money to buy things, car, bunglo, travel and have a career! hmm..I guess it's a mis-thought. Because teacher never teach us in school!! :(

YA...my current life is not EXITING and EXHILARATING at all now....

SO................

Let's post something more important in my life..something like :
a) Future?
b) How to safe 100K before 30 years old?! or
c) Why the monk sold his Ferrari?

Hmmm...not interesting enough....

err..... I'll post bout the most important girl drink in my life, COFFEE!!!! .... important enough neh....




COFFEE or KOPI

Coffee is a popular brewed drink prepared from roasted seeds, commonly called coffee beans, of the coffee plant. No doubt this is the best drink from bean! Red bean, green bean, black bean...all no match for coffee bean!! (and stop wondering if MR.Bean is a bean) =_=! ....and ......... YES HE IS! The bean with the longest expiry date!....the problem is....we CAN'T make him into a drink...that's the sad part :(

OK, serious....OH MY GIRL =_=
OK, serious....OH MY COFFEE......


I started to drink coffee since I was an embryo. Coffee was 'drained' through the 'half inch pipe' (belly tube?) from my mum's mouth. Well, I didn't have any choice like in the vending machine. I drank what my mum chose :( I tried. I was struggling to talk to mum by kicking her, "Mum, Expresso double shot extra milk please!". But it's all vain.

"Hey! no yee mee please! YUCKS!!"

So, after I was born and transported to this earth, for the first few years, I was forbidden to drink any drink made from coffee bean, only red bean, green bean, black been and Mr.Bean. So, as I remember, I started to drink coffee before I start my kindergarten time. I was taken cared by my aunt who always make Kopi O for her family every morning. So, I had it too! Those time was wonderful. No worries.


Then, during secondary school, I began to like coffee. Because I learnt how to make coffee, and it's FOC to make own coffee at home. Last time, I could have a cup of coffee and few pieces of biscuits as my lunch only, and slowly it becomes my favourite 'set' of meals until I always remind my parents to buy coffee when it's out of supply.

My love towards coffee grow stronger after I went into college. My house mates envy me because I have a lovely relationship with Kopi O. Sometimes I shared my Kopi O with them. LOL. Kopi O helped me a lot during my exam period. It make me feel awake so I could burn mid night oil for my exam and assignment...but sometimes I misused it for DOTA games and mid night movie. Thats why I always win in DOTA games versus my housemates. They seldom drink coffee!

During those 'sad' days in my college life, I like to drink Kopi O. It gives me a indescribable feeling that make me feel better. err...maybe something like emo-drink. :)
"I miss those moment you and I were drinking together. I was drinking Kopi O and you were drinking Milo, together we used to burnt the same oil for the same lamp" :')

My parents like Kopi O too. So, indirectly it make us closer during the weekends. They would ask me if I want a cup of Kopi O before they walked to the kitchen and start preparing. Same goes to me, always with a polite-yell, "tiang ai Kopi O?!" Then, sometimes we would sit together in the living room watching TV and waiting for the Kopi O to cool down enough to be drink.



Even during my study in Sheffield, Kopi O + biscuit is one of my supper too! You can see here together with the food i had! :)

http://kforkiat.blogspot.com/2008/06/sheffield-food.html

Now, Kopi O are still here with me. Kopi O and blogging are inseparable. It gives me feel to express out my feeling through blog... "Hey boss! You ciak ka ki esok! I quit!" Yes, I just expressed something impossible.....

That's it. Kopi O.....

AMAZING ISN'T IT!!!!

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

I like this song...i like the rhythm and the mix of Rihanna and Eminem.
Btw, I am lazy to blog..... I will, soon. =(

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna



Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

work...AGAIN!

It's Sunday! Today feel so relax and happy at home. So, i chose to blog, with my mum-made coffee, my day almost perfect.

Thank you for you who still following my blog. touched :') I've not been writing a lot since my working days started. Working life is almost the same for most of us, DISLIKE WORKING....

Here is one very strong evidence to prove my hypothesis correct. "Human dislike working"
(The story wasn't explained to me in detail. This is a TRUE story with nothing added. all 100% PURE....err....really! TRUE OK! GENUINE!)

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One of my friend who has just graduated from college found herself a job and has been working in the office for around 2 weeks.

In the very beautiful evening everyone was so busy working. And then my friend who was working very hard too, peeped on the clock that hung very far away, 5.15 pm! Time to go back!
She tidy up her desk and pack her belongings AS FAST AS SHE COULD and start to SPRINT away from her desk...She say and wave goodbye SO HAPPILY UNTIL "TEETH ALSO DROP" to all of her colleagues whom she thought they have a lot of undone work, that's why they stay back. To pretend hardworking, she started to walk slowly like "haih, i'll finish up my work tomorrow, I got appointment later"......As she closed the office door, she SPRINTED!!!! as fast as she can to the guard house located 100m away, in 9 seconds time! even faster than Marion Jones! She can still sing "La-la-la-lu-la-la-lu-la-lu-la-leh~"(fast version)......and she reached. She took her ENERGETIC right hand to reach her punch card, and suddenly.....

"You bukan kerja sampai pukul lima kah?"

silent........................................................................

She looked at the clock on the card machine........4.15PM!!!! YA! IT'S FOUR FIFTEEN PM. She reached the 100m sprint finish line FIRST! but she had been caught foul start which she didn't realise....

Suddenly, those spotlights once aimed on her, off....all turned dark...she walked back to the starting line (her office, her desk), as slow as a heart broken tortoise. Her cheek started to change red. She rather become an ostrich now...or even little tiny mosquito that no one will realise her existence....She walk back to her desk and reply her colleagues smiles with her "please-don't-smile-at-me smile". She examine the clock inside the office....still working well! It was her mistake......

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Conclusion, human being dislike working. "The first minute of work is to wish the last minute of work comes as fast as possible" - PSK 2010 :P

True? hahaha. The person above please don't feel offended. I'll keep your name a secret. Besides, it's a normal phenomenon of human being ;PMonday morning is few hours more to go. The most hated day in the week. Even student! They are being "forced" stand straight and still to sing and listen as early as 7.30am! Even the Garbage Collector. People will fill up their rubbish bin on Monday morning until it overflow and throw it scattered all beside the rubbish bin like no people business. Pity garbage collectors have to pick it up one by one.Other than that, Monday morning:

1) start with unusual traffic jam.
2) make people, colleagues and boss hot tempered.
3) make us recheck schedule and realise there are so much to do this week!
4) make us miss Sunday
and a lot more!hahaha! but no matter what, this is life. We can change the perceptions of Monday!

Monday morning:
1) Start with traffic jam. So, we wake up earlier, train our discipline, punctuality, time estimation!
2) Create hot tempers. So, we learn how to handle them as this is what we going to face for the rest of our lives! Believe me!
3) Too much work?! Good. No pain no gain!
4) Miss Sunday?! Err....this one is unexplainable.....sorry for that.

That's it. Good luck to all of you!